a sad story

okay . FULLY english . wanna test my english ohh . haha .

hm , firstly . oh my gosh i really miss you . hm , last saturday morning i received a message from you dear . hhhmmmm :'( you know , i'm glad when i read your text . don't know why but it feel like errr what i would say huh ? hmm it feel like comfortable , rileks , chill ermm and what ever will be .

babe ,
hmm everyday i feel lonely . i do anything without any feeling ryte now . who cares bout me ? who cares bout my feeling ? almost two years , you always by my side ryte ? my sadness, happiness , luckiest day . everything i shared with you . not missed somethng at all . hmm . now who want to be my crying shoulder . before this , only you by my side . always , everyday . everytime . god ! can i got my big brother back ? dont make me feel dissapointed everyday waiting for his messages ??? errr why all of this get into my life :'( GOD , i've lost my beloved mother . i wish i didn't lost my brother too . although he was not my real siblings butt . i feel comfortable to shared everything with him than my own family .. oh my god . i need him ...
i miss he call me adk . i miss he call me baby gurl . i miss him ... i miss his voice ... i miss when he sang for me . when he try to make me happy while i'm sad .... god .. please returned hi  too meee . PLEEEEAAAASSSSEEEE :'( i hope so ..

babe ,
i wishh i could hug you and say how much i miss you , how much i love my abg .... hmm i wish you were here ryte now . beside me ..

god .. please make my wishes comes true .. please make my dream comes true as soon as posibble ... i miss him .. badly .. if i have a power , i'll make her gurlfie understand our relation . errr hey bitch ! nothing between us you know . it's only love between abg and adk okayy ?

hmmm ....

hiding my face , crying alone
i need to find my way to back home
back to the place , the wonderfull days
living the feel i used to know

where every smile
was born ot of love and of sincerity
and every tear of overflowing joy
cause i don't wanna be alone
lives my live without you
oh god please returned him back to me :')